The Heart Wants What It Wants

Happy Holidays ? Yea ? 

I always feel happy and excited during every single holiday 

But this times seem not like this 

This is the most longest holidays in a year 

As a student 

I am felt very excited too 

But as long as the holidays goes 

I am feel very worry now 

Next year I will become a Form 5 student 

How is my life will going ? 

I sleep alone this few month at room 

Because two of my brothers also not at here 

Actually I very miss them now 

And I feel somethings are lost 

What should I do ? 

Both brothers also busy about their life 

But how is about me ? 

I wake up at afternoon everyday 

Watching facebook over night 

Playing the phone over and over again 

Time flies fast, but I do nothing 

These made me feel bad 

The heart wants what it wants 

I want many things but I have no the heart to do to struggle 

I wan become a good girl who proud of my parents 

My exam results are extremely bad and suck

I must have at least one failed at each examination 

Because I spend all of my time on Internet 

Too waste I know 

But how can I change this bad attitude ?

My life is only like this ? 

What can I do ?

What can I be ? 

How to make it ? 

I feel really wonder 

How to make my life.